Another week of waiting for the approval has come and gone. I know to some this waiting is nothing compared to the wait they have waited to see their childs face but I feel this wait is horrible, I feel like this wait is putting my adoption on hold. I'm not saying the wait in Ethiopia will be easier, but at least the end result will be a baby, it won't be a simple letter saying that the gov. of Ont. feels we are good enough people to be parents. I just want the red tape part to be over so that I can as well be officially expecting. How will I deal with the long wait for a referral, if I can't deal with the short wait, you may ask? Well i'm not sure but hopefully somewhat better than I'm dealing with this wait. The days and weeks are so sloooooowwwww. I just want Kaysen home. I know some have been waiting much longer, I just feel like i've been waiting 4 years to have a family and now I have to wait at least 1-2 more, it's just hard. I'm also turning 32 in 2 weeks and feel like i'm getting old and still don't have my family.....why? why? why? I know to most 32 is not old, but to me it's old to not have my family started. Sorry just a quick vent this morning to allow me to go on and wait the next few weeks.