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Thursday, November 12, 2009


I got to go to the bank this afternoon and get my retainer and money out to the new "Imagine Adoption" I made sure to send it express post with a signature requiried to assure it gets to the right place. I remember the last time I sent money to imagine, it was for the dossier to leave for Ethiopia. I remember leaving the bank and post office with a large smile on my face excited for the year to come. Boy, was it different today, no excitement just fear and nervousness.


Another Great Women's World Quote

Yesterday was a strange day for me, I left for work in the am. Upon my return I got everything ready to send off the retainer, all that was missing was the cheque...kind of the important part. So off I go to the bank and it's CLOSED (rememberance day) well at that moment my mood completly changed from good to horrible, and ready to cry. Such a large influx of emotions, I understand why we have to do what we have to do but I can't wrap my head around "WHY" this inner pain of wanting to be a mother is sooooo hard to heal. Why the extra steps to get to what we want when so many others don't even have to think about it and bam...they are parents.
Anyways enough self pity this morning. I was reading my weekly dose of Women's World and read this quote this morning, I thought I would share.

"Your dreams are right around the corner! Sure, you've had your share of worries lately. But sooner than you think, they'll be far behind you. And yes, you've faced challenges--but you're meeting them. In fact, nothing can stand in your way for long, because you have what it takes not only to survive, but to thrive! Just keep going. Success is so close!"

What a great encouraging message just when I needed it. So now, today is the day I will get everything sent off.