All evening I have been imagining the moment I will finally get to hold my son. Cuddle him, kiss his little head as he sleeps, and just sit and stare. It's a yearning feeling I have inside , I usually don't sit and dwell on it to much but tonight it was stronger than I was. The empty feeling inside is needing to be filled. I know I have months, if not years to wait but I often ask myself, when will it go away, why can't I make it go away, and finally will it ever go away?
I picture you in our home, sharing, laughing, smiling, creating new memories. I long for the day I don't have to picture it anymore.
