Wednesday, December 24, 2008
A few weeks ago I came to the realization that my baby boy is conceived, and ever since then i can't stop thinking of the birth mother, and how she is doing and if she is healthy and so on, which i'm sure is a normal part of the process. Having the birth mother on my mind while shopping one day I came across the most beautiful painting and said "I must have it", in my eyes, it represents my son's birth mother and father. So, this morning, not being to get it out of my mind, I went out and bought myself a christmas gift. This painting will hang in my home forever as a symbol of my son's birth parents always watching over him, no matter where he is.
I would like to wish the love of my life a wonderful and happy birthday today. I would also like to take this moment to explain to you all what Chris means to me. Shortly after Chris and I met we began dating and became instant best friends as well as lovers. I knew he was the one after our first date and lucky for me he felt the same. I thank god every day for him, he is always there to make me smile when I need it and always willing to give me a big bear hug when needed as well. He has been so amazing with the last few years of infertility and with the adoption. He has been so supportive and willing to listen to me cry, laugh, talk non stop about the adoption without ever showing he wasn't interested. I could not ask for anyone more special to go on this journey with. I never knew love could be like this and I never knew love could grow on a daily basis. He still, after 8 years, gives me butterflies when he kisses me and still makes my heart feel like it's going to explode. I love him more than I ever thought I could love. I look forward to expanding our family with him and growing old with him. He is going to be such an amazing father and I can't wait to see it all happen. I can only imagine how supportive he will be with our son. He has introduced me to things in life that I never knew about and he has brought me places I never would have gone without him. He is truly my soul mate and I wouldn't change a thing. I sometimes reflex at how lucky I am to have found my soul mate and how I can't imagine life without him in it.
I love you my love.