Birthday cake

The more goo the better....yummy!

Every year I get an ice cream cake on my birthday and this year was no different. Chris sang happy birthday for me and here is the cake and all the cards I came home to yesterday. There is also the biggy bank I got from my secret pal with an Ethiopian ribbon. Thank you all so much. xoxoxo

11 months

WOW.....I missed it. Goes to show you how crazy my life has been lately. Definitely doesn't mean I don't think of Kaysen everyday, I guess i'm just not sitting at home counting the days. Next month is the big one...oh have things changed since this time last year

Another year down, how many to go

Today I turn 33. Although I felt like I would be alone, well Chris and I only (sorry I think we are one sometimes) I came home yesterday to a whole lot of love in the mail. Thank you all for making me feel so special and loved. I do wish my family was around but your thoughtfulness was perfect.

To another year, may the next year bring me my son!!!!!!!!!!!!

Leaving on a Jet Plane.....

Off to Toronto I go. Chris and I have been in Thunder Bay since Sunday and today I fly out to Toronto to catch a flight to Nashville and he is driving back home. I will be in Nashville for a week for some training for work. I do hope to get to see some of Nashville as we usually don't really go anywhere during our training. I get back home on Oct 30th and then my bday on the 31st and then back at it on the Nov 2nd, busy, busy, busy.

We did get an update this week from the new agency and it looks like things are moving along right where they should be. Some staff has been hired, the licence application has been sent, and the paperwork has been started. They have also started making plans to travel to Ethiopia and get working on the orphanage relationships that have to be rebuilt. The great news is that the orphanages that weren't getting paid due to the bankruptcy have now been paid and the children are taken care of.

I know I haven't been posting much lately, and it's because I don't have much to say. Life is busy, there is a long wait ahead and it's sometimes easier not to write about it. I have also been staying clear of blogs. Not because I don't care because I do, very much, but again sometimes it's just easier. I hope you all understand.

Congratulations

A dear friend of mine received her referral yesterday and although she has not yet announced it to the world I wanted to express my CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!!!! You know who you are. Can't wait to meet the new addition and hear more.

Gone far far away

This post is one week over due. Last week was a mixed emotions week for me. The life I have known for 33 yrs was changed forever.

First thing was that my parents left for their long awaiting trip to Arizona.


They have been planning to travel for their retirement for a very long time and after months of renovations, mess, emotions going crazy and all of us being so busy, they were finally able to leave for their first trip. Although they will be greatly missed, I am so happy and excited that they are doing what they said they were going to do and I know they will have a blast. They have already explored Tennessee and should be arriving in Arizona today sometime. I hope to be able to have the same opportunity to travel with Chris someday. I only have one message for them " Have fun, stop worrying about the kids, enjoy your time together. Every minute is precious and should not be taken for granted" We love you lots.

And the next day, my sister and her family moved far, far away to Kamloops BC, 4 days drive, 4 hours difference, far, far away.

Although I know in my heart that its the best thing for them and that they are ok, its so hard to know that I can't get in the car and go see them in 15min. I feel so helpless being so far away, I feel that I can't be there for them when I'm needed and i'm having a hard time adjusting to that. I know they are not my kids and my sister and brother in law are adults but it's hard to let go of the "always there" title when I can't be. We only had 2 weeks to digest the move and next thing you know they were gone. I wish that someday they will be back in our lives on a daily basis but I know that probably won't happen. They will be so missed and its hard to know that Kaysen won't be around to know his aunt/uncle/nieces. I have to keep telling myself this is not about ME and what I feel, it's about them and what best for them. It just doesn't make it easier. However, I do wish them all the luck in the world, I hope they all adjust to there new beginning and that they are all going to be ok. Our lives will not be same without them around but at least they are still around and not gone forever. They are just gone far, far away....