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Monday, August 31, 2009

One more week....

According to BDO we have approx. one more week to wait for the restructuring's hoping for a good ending to the week with good news.

I have also purchased a WII fit and WII active today so here's hoping I can stick to it... no wait I will stick to it and lose the wait I need to lose before my son comes home.

Have a great week everyone,

Thursday, August 27, 2009

Nine Months

2 days ago we reached the nine month waiting mark. Last months 8 mth mark I wasn't posting but with all the great things happening these days, this is a month I want to celebrate.

Here's hoping there won't be many months of waiting left.

Friday, August 21, 2009

Great news

Now if I understand this correctly we will all be presented with a restructing plan in the week to come, at which point we will review and vote on. Once a vote has been done and all agree with the plan, the plan will then be presented to the Ministry/Courts for approval and we can then all concentrate on bringing our son home.

This is great news as I felt it was going to be a yes or no update next week, that they were going to tell us yes we can work on a plan or no we can't make it happen, but I was mistaken, the have been working on the actual plan and they actually have something in place to propose to all of us, i'm so excited and feel that this is such a large step. Don't get me wrong i'm still worried, but as I told Chris today, i'll probably be worried until the day we get home with Kaysen, however, I feel confident that this will all work itself out one step at a time. To see all the amazing events that have happened since the bankruptcy please visit,

I will update as I know more. Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers, please keep them coming as so far they are doing a wonderful job.

Saturday, August 15, 2009


I'm sure i'm not the only one feeling scared right now and I don't necessarily feel like posting about it, but I do want my feelings of the journey in this blog so here it is.

I'm so scared for the next two weeks to come along. I'm hoping more than anything that things go our way and that our adoption continues, but everyday the ball of yuck in my stomach is getting bigger and bigger and I just want to throw up. I'm so scared that it won't be what we want and hope for. What happens then? I know, I know, i'm suppose to stay positive, but it's normal human motherly nature to think "What if", what will I do? How will I cope? Will that be it? Do we start over? Do we go another direction? I don't want to have to answer any of these questions, I just want my son, is that too much to ask?

The closer we get to an answer the farther I want to be. It's like I wish I had another few months to process the "What if?" but yet I want a few weeks to go by incase it is good news. My mind is so confused right now.

As mentioned in my last post, I've been really busy which is great but everyday it's a struggle to get up and work and stay busy, when what I really want to do is just lay in bed and hug my Kaysen bear (which I haven't slept without since).

I know I will get through the next few weeks and I know we will figure it out at that time as to what to do next but I just don't want to deal with it.....

Thursday, August 13, 2009

Work, work, work

I know i'm not posting much lately but it's not because I don't want to, it's that I can't find the time. I've been going hard with the new job and love being as busy as I am. The best part of it all is how fast the time is going. Already two weeks have gone by and we only have another two weeks for the restructing plan to be completed. As of the meeting the Trustees/Inspectors for BDO Dunwoody had today they are still on track to present a plan to the courts/government by the end of the month. We been in this for 1 1/2 years whats another 2 weeks to find out what's next.

Hope is definitely keeping me going from day to day and I still can't even imagine what I'll do if things don't go as planned but that is not what we are living with right now. Chris is doing ok as well, he is such a strong man and without him this would have been unbearable. He is my rock and I thank God every day for him. We both want to be parents more than anything in the world and often wonder why this is all happening to us, why can't we be lucky and have the easy road of others but everybody has their own story as to how their family became whole, ours will just be a heck of lot longer to tell.

Anyways, thank you all so much for the support and encouragement. We really appreciate it all.

PS. I would like to congratulate Rana and Yvan on the referral of their son, Ade, you were so strong through your wait and to see you so happy is such a great thing to see. I can't wait to see what the little guy looks like.

Monday, August 3, 2009

Our Journey Continues...

After a few weeks of sitting around trying to figure out what our next move is, as well as how to deal with this awful situation, I have decided to come back and keep our journey going. There have been meetings in the last week that have given us all hope and within the next month we will know what is to happen. We have not given up on Kaysen at all and feel that our journey to him is still going. Until we hear differently this blog will keep documenting our everyday lives, good times and bad times. As mentioned before, this blog has always been written with Kaysen in mind, therefore although we are going through some rough roads in our journey they will be documented in a way that when Kaysen reads it later on in his life he will get to see how strong we all were, working together to get him home. Although at times I have felt like it was over, Chris has never doubted the end and that is why we are stronger today. Our son is waiting for us, it may be a little tougher to get to him but we will someday, somehow and we keep wondering "why" but I think once we finally get to bring him home we will all understand why and appreciate him all the more.

Thank you all for your support over the last few weeks.

Here's to the light that is still bright at the end of the road....!!!!!!