Tomorrow will be 6 wks that our dossier is in Ministry hands awaiting approval. I know I was told 6-8 wks but have seen many families receive their approval in 6 wks so I was hoping we would be in the 6 wk area as well. I worry that the dossier isn't even there, that for some reason it didn't make it there and we won't know until 8 wks as that is when my Case Worker will call for an update. I worry that it's taking that long due to issues the gov't may have about us. This approval will at least put my mind at ease that we "according to gov't standards" will be allowed to have a family. I know that the wait for the referral will be much harder and the wait for travel even worse but at this point i'm sitting here waiting for a gov't official to decide if we will be good parents. What will I do if they say no. The odds of that are rare I understand and there is nothing in the home study to suggest that we would be not approved but what if, what if, what if, is always in my mind. An approval will mean that, yes, I will still have to wait to expand our family with a little one, but at least I will know that the "out of our hands" decisions are done with.
I hope i'm not being selfish in this next statement, but I ask you all to please pray that we will receive our approval soon and that I can officially wear my "Expecting from Ethiopia" tshirt. I really don't mean to sound so discouraged I just want this hurdle over and done with. My birthday is this Friday and i've been wishing all month for that as a birthday gift, so maybe Friday will be the day.
thanks for listening.
