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Thursday, September 24, 2009

Just thought of something.....happiness

Yesterday I made the long drive back from Thunder Bay to Sault Ste Marie (8hrs) only to end up in a VERY dumpy hotel, with no internet, and I thought the last one was bad. Needless to say it's my fault for not making prior arrangements. The one great thing about yesterday was the absolutely gorgeous sunset that travelled with me. If anyone out there is looking for a gorgeous scenic drive you must do the drive from Thunder Bay to Sault Ste Marie, it's absolutely gorgeous and I will make sure to have my camera the next time.

All the way back I was being careful not to encounter wildlife and did good, until I reached the hotel and there to greet me in the parking lot was a large moose, again no camera so no pic, but it was great. It actually chased some guy around a tree. Quite entertaining. Anyways, being exhausted I just wanted to get to bed, so I get into this room and check for bugs, I open the curtains, and about 6 large spiders are staring at me, they were on the other side of the glass but still....yuck, after an intense bug check I settled in, above the covers, and feel asleep....zzzzzz for like 10 min. then jumped out of bed...shaking, not knowing where the heck I was and scared to death. Well that describes my every hour for the next 6 hrs evening. So, as soon as it was morning, I got up, dressed and checked out. Being on the road is a blast so far..... lol After driving around for 30min trying to find a place with internet I found a cute coffee shop and have been sitting here for the last few hours....i'm sure they will be kicking me out very soon. They will think I'm homeless or

Anyways, to get to what this post is actually about, as i'm sitting here trying to wake up I realized that I am now free to think about Kaysen (not that I ever stopped) to speak about him and his coming home someday and even more importantly I can start retail therapy again....yeahhhhhhhhhhhh. I will have to go through all is stuff to see what I have but at least I can look again, even if I don't buy as i'm sure Chris will tell me "he has enough". It will just feel good to be able to look again.

As I was driving yesterday I realized i'm finally happy again, it's been months since I could say that I was actually happy. All I wanted to do was be happy enough to be able to dance freely again (by myself as I look rediculous) but once I get home I will definitely get the dogs together and have a dance..................thank god for the great inside feeling again.

Okay, enough know what, it also feels great to blog again....


Tammy said...

Yay! Retail therapy rocks! One thing I just told Rana was that Weleda's calendula diaper creme is the very best! I know it is too early to buy that but take note of it. You can usually get it in Natural food stores and upscale baby stores. Closer to the time you need it let me know if you can't find it and I'll send you some. It clears up any rash on J the same day we apply it. Sometimes within the next diaper change.

Glad you are doing better and dreaming again. All is right with the world now. :)

Tammy said...

You know what? I should have said I'll just bring you some creme with me and I'll give it to you in Ethiopia seeing as we're going to travel together. :)

Stephanie said...

Sooo glad to hear that you feel happy again!!!! Can't wait to do some retail therapy with you.....we make a good team!

Steph :-)