Sharing

I read this post on A's blog and wanted to share with you all as she said exactly what I was thinking.

Firsts
Proof that Imagine is truly back.
That it is better than ever.
That it is stronger and more progressive.
That it is transparent and more supportive.

Proof that all us parents are more strongly united.
That we support each other more than ever.
That we know each other more than ever.
That we are more encouraging and excited than ever.

December 16 the first several referrals were realized.Sometime last night while we were all sleeping, a birth mother in Addis Ababa relinquished her parental rights and a judge ruled in favour of this little girl's new parents in Canada.

Our first Imagine family passed court.
They passed on the first try.
They are parents to one beautiful little girl.

Proof that Imagine has risen.
Proof that family is being created.
Proof that we can do this

14 Months

We hit 14 mths today. 14 months wow, I never thought I would be a 14 months and wondering how much longer I will have to wait. However, I also never thought I would be at 14 months and feeling good about things. We are at a great place on the list, we are at a great place emotionally and I think we will be okay to wait some more. I'm just grateful that the wait is still on and we are one month closer. That's all that really matters.

On to 15....

Thoughts are with Ethiopia

My thoughts are with the Ethiopian people today as there was a horrible plane crash yesterday with over 80 people on board. Here is the article

http://calgary.ctv.ca/servlet/an/local/CTVNews/20100125/Ethiopian_air_100125/20100125/?hub=CalgaryHome

Please take a moment of thought for the families effected by this sad situation.

Dreaming

All evening I have been imagining the moment I will finally get to hold my son. Cuddle him, kiss his little head as he sleeps, and just sit and stare. It's a yearning feeling I have inside , I usually don't sit and dwell on it to much but tonight it was stronger than I was. The empty feeling inside is needing to be filled. I know I have months, if not years to wait but I often ask myself, when will it go away, why can't I make it go away, and finally will it ever go away?

I picture you in our home, sharing, laughing, smiling, creating new memories. I long for the day I don't have to picture it anymore.

Obsessive??

Ok, so I may be being obsessive about this but I have done the calculations of what is ahead of me on the list, there are 37 numbers missing ahead of me, and there are 17 with similar request than me, so what does that mean.....the max number we can be is 54 boys to be referred. I'm sure there are girl requests in the 37 missing, but if I say they are all boys, that means 54 boys from now will be us.....I know obsessive, but what else do I have to do.

Counting down....

less than 24 hrs and we are down to 79 and counting.....yahooo

82

We got our number on the list today and we are lucky number 82. What this means you may ask? Well it means there are 82 families who have requested a single child before us on the list, this is boys and girls. So if we remove all the girls we will be less than 82.
It was kind of weird getting this number, it has made Kaysen more real and made us say "Wow, this is actually going to happen" if all goes well we could actually know what he looks like by the end of this year, how amazing is that. It's also kind of scary, scary that we will actually someday be parents and intrusted to take care of a little one. Wow. I mean, we are more than ready it's just kind of crazy that this is really happening to us. What a great feeling to know we are on track again after such a hard year.
Another great thing is that I was under the impression we requested a boy under the age of 9mths, but I was wrong we requested a boy under the age of 6 mths. 6months, means we will be referred a little baby, I was expected a child closer to 1 year and we might actually get a baby, how amazing is that. I guess i'll have to do some more shopping....lol Just kidding, I made promises to wait until we see him to start shopping again.
Referral are going to be so much more exciting now, not that I wasn't excited everytime referrals happened but every referral is officially one step closer to our little one. Bring on the referrals.
Anyways, it's still hitting me that this is for real, but I want to take this moment to thank everyone for the continued encouragement and thank you to the New Imagine for doing such a wonderful job. I have new trust in the new agency and think all the people involved are such special people.

82 YAYYYYYYYYYYYYY LET THE COUNTDOWN BEGIN.

Haiti Earthquake

The poor country of Haiti was hit by a large 7.0 earthquake last night at approx. 4:50pm, causing a devistation like no other. The country hasn't had an earthquake of this magnitude in 200 yrs. This country doesn't have the resources to deal with this type of catastrophy and many, many people will be affected. I pray that they get the help they need to recover, and rebuild. The world we live in is a confusing, angry world, however there are good people out there and when a tragedy hits they come together to help. I do hope they surface here and help the poor people of Haiti. They are in my thoughts and prayers, and I hope they will be in all of yours as well.

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Letting it go

We had purchased a home in Savona BC, conditional on the sale of our home and a few inspections. It was a cute 1300 sq ft home in a small town of 650 people and would have been perfect for us. However we received the septic tank inspection report and it looks like there are a few issues. Can they be fixed? Absolutely, however knowing there are small issues has got me concerned that there may be more and that it may sooner than later cost a heck of alot more to get the whole thing replaced. After much discussion and thinking we have decided to let it go. Our big concern is that there isn't much in Kamloops that makes sense for a good price but we have time it's not like our house is going any where fast.
It was nice that we had found a place and would have been able to scratch one thing off the list but now Chris will be looking again on his days off and hopefully find us something soon.
They do say to follow your gut, right?? Because my gut was saying "HOLD ON A SEC" so I hope I heard it correctly.

Celebration is in order

2 more referrals were announced today. They were for two girls and they were both under 3months old, how sweet is that. They are currently working on the dossiers of end of May, begining of June. This is news that none of us could have of imagines. Way to go "New Imagine" you are all surpassing our expectations, keep up the good work.

Officially For Sale

Well it's official, our home is now on the market. According to our agent it's priced right and shows beautifully so hopefully showings start soon. This is the last piece of the puzzule needed for us to have our new begining.

Good luck

Chris is starting his new job today and I wanted to wish him all the luck in the world.

"You are an amazing man and I believe in you more than you will ever know. I want to thank you for taking on this new adventure, for allow us the opportunity to provide better for our family in the future. I love you very much and look forward to being with you again"

Our Wedding Song

This was posted on Facebook today and I had to add it to our blog as it's our wedding song.

All I want is you by U2 Live in Milan. Love you Babe.

***** Make sure to go shut the music off at the bottom of the blog page to listen*****

My New Year's Gift from Chris

I woke up this morning to find this beautiful message from my husband in my inbox.

Thank you so much, I love and miss you so much. Soon we will be together. xoxo

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