Introducing Owen Lucas Beaudry

Last Saturday, June 6th 2009 at 12:54pm my nephew Owen Lucas Beaudry was born weighing 7.12 lbs measuring 51 cm. He has redish hair and so far big blue eyes. My sister and I drove down and got to see him when he was about 5 hrs old. He is super cute and although it was a very hard day emotionally and I wanted my son more than anything, I have gotten through it and now miss Owen every day. I can't wait to see him again next weekend. Here are some pics of the little one. Enjoy.

Ren and I leaving to go see him.

Matante Renee holding Owen for the first time.

Matante Nat holding baby Owen for the first time. His eyes were open the whole day that day.

The happy family. My brother Denis and sister in law Laura. Congrats to you both and thank you for the nephew.

Proud Memere holding Owen, look how small he is.

Proud Pepere holding Owen and wearing his Grandpa hat and tshirt. He is so cute.

Our first sight of Owen.

3 generations of Beaudry men. Owen will be the first Beaudry of this generation to carry on the Beaudry name. Look how proud my dad looks. I just love it.

This is Owen the second day, all he did was sleep, it was to exciting for him on the first day.

The siblings with baby Owen. (sorry for cutting off part of your head Den)

May 31st 2009 "SNOW DAY"

i'm a little behind on my posts so here is a quick update of life this past month.
On May 31st we woke up to snow....YEP I SAID SNOW, big fluffy snow. Here are some pics.

Maddux in his glory, he rolled and rolled and rolled.

View from the back fence. (that is my new deck you are seeing as well)

View from patio doors. It was depressing but was all gone by mid morning.

Maddux

I've had some inquiries about my dog Maddux and his recovery. We have been so busy lately with the new job, travelling, renovating and taking care of Maddux that I haven't had the time to post. First off, I would like to thank you for your concerns and comments of well wishes. So far he is recovery nicely, it's been a large inconvenience to the whole family as he can't go up stairs therefor one of us has to stay with him on the main floor every night, I'm hoping to be able to sleep in the same bed as my husband again someday...lol we are now at 5 weeks post op and only have 3 months to go before our life is somewhat back to normal. He will be going in for xrays in 3 weeks to see how the bone is healing. It's hard to see him confined to an area all time as he was such an active dog, but Ziggy keeps him occupied and us worried by playing with him.

So that's my update for now. Thanks again for asking.

Baby Beaudry is coming today!!!!!!!

Today is the day my brother's son will be born. My sister in law went into labour last night, just after midnight and is now 8cm dialated (11am) so he should be here shortly. My parents left early this morning as he lives 3 hrs away and my sister and I will be leaving this afternoon. This is the first nephew on my side of the family and the first baby on our side in 13 yrs, so it's pretty exciting. I can't wait to meet little Owen Beaudry.

Happy Birthday little man, matante is on her way. xoxoxo

Jess and Evan and Owen

I'm back home now and so much is going on. I got back last night and stopped over at my brothers house hoping my nephew Owen would be born. My poor sister in law Laura is just sitting around waiting for him to come out and being her first child, she is literally sitting around waiting for something to happen but she isn't sure what she is waiting for. I sure hope she doesn't have to wait much longer. It breaks my heart that I won't be able to go see him right away if he is born this week as i'm working a long week this week and would only be able to go on next Sunday. The one good thing with that is that everyone else will have had their turn and Owen would be all mine...!!!
As i'm about to welcome a new nephew i'm also saying goodbye to my eldest niece Jessyka, she and her boyfriend Evan, who i've talked about in previous post, are leaving in the AM and moving to Edmonton which is where Evan is based with the military, they bought a condo and will be taking possession this week. It is so hard to see her go and i'm worried and hoping she will be okay but knowing she will be with such an amazing human being is making me feel better. I have never met anyone like Evan and feel lucky that he is the one that she will be starting her life with. I wish them all the luck in the world in starting their life together and look forward to visiting soon. It's so hard to see her go, i've been a part of her life since birth and love her dearly. We are a very close family and although I feel she is too young I think it's a selfish thought on my part as I just wish they wouldn't ever grow up. I still picture her first day of school, or our first weekend together when she was just a week or so old. Time flies and i'm proud of her accomplishments, I just wish I hadn't taken her time here for granted. Note to self with Kaysen, don't take him for granted as time goes by too fast and next thing you know it will be his turn.

I love you Jess and hope you know we will always be here for you and Evan if ever you need ANYTHING and please please please be careful....xoxoxoox

Meeting Laura

I'm still here in Winnipeg and so far the week has been good. But this evening it got even better as I got to meet up with Laura, a fellow blogger. She picked me up after dinner for a tea and dessert and a nice chat. It's so great to meet people I only speak to online. The fellow bloggers I have gotten to know have become a large part of this journey. They are the people we look to for support, the ones we look to for understand and alot have become great friends and although I have only spoken to Laura by email and blogging it was as if I knew her for a long time. Our common bond makes it a comfortable situation and it's something I feel with many of you. I thank you all for that comfortable feeling and thank you Laura for taking the time to meet up with me. I hope to see you again soon.

Here are some pics of our meeting. She took me to "The Forks" which is where two rivers join in Winnipeg and some of the area was still flooded from the big flood they had this spring.

We took a great picture of the two of us but my computer isn't uploading very well with this hotel internet connection so I'll have to add them when I get back home. Stay tuned.....

This is the walkway we were suppose to take a walk on, as you can see it's still flooded.

Laura and I

6 MONTHS YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WE HAVE HIT THE 6 MONTH MARK!!!!!!!!!!!! Wow, I can't believe we are at 6 months. Has been a fun and fast 6 months, absolutely not, but we made it and it feels amazing. Can we do another 6 months, I'm guessing we can. I sooooooo hoping this is the half way mark for, or even better passed the half way mark. This month zoomed by again, I so hope this continues for the next few months as well.

OFF TO WINNIPEG I GO

Winnipeg, MB

I'm off to Toronto in the morning, where I will hop on a plane and fly to Winnipeg for the week. I will be in Winnipeg for training and look forward to seeing a new city of Canada that I have yet to visit. I hope you all have a great week and I hope we get referral, court and travel news this week.

Blahhhhhh Taxes

I hope you all had a great long weekend. I on the other hand took the opportunity to get my taxes all inputed and 2 days of sorting, and input I have completed, only to find out I owe alot of money again this year. I know, if you make money you have to pay taxes but why so much, does the government now realize I also have to live...lol all and all, not to much of an exciting weekend. It was cold here most of the weekend, but at least we didn't get snow like our friends in Alberta.

Wishing all a great week,

Nat

Mother's Day

Just wanted to take a moment to wish all you mom's out there a Happy Mother's Day and to those that are in my shoes and waiting once again for an "official" mother's day, I feel for you, be strong we will all get through it together and be better for it in the end.

Hope you all had a great day.

Surgery Update

We arrived home yesterday from Toronto with Maddux, fresh from surgery. So far he is doing ok. It's going to be a long 4 months of recovery but we will get through it. We have currently changed the living room area to a recovery area with a large bed on the floor and the tv and everything we need to prevent Maddux from being alone. We are lucky enough to not have be alone for very long in the next few days as if we are out my parents will be here to watch him while they work. Here's hoping all goes well and we don't have to do this ever again.

Surgery

Giving mommy kisses

Chris and I are at my brother, Denis and sister in law, Laura's place in Allliston, while Maddux is in Toronto having surgery as I write this post. Our little guy stayed at the hospital last night and will be there for another 2 nights. He will then have 4 months of recovery and not 8 weeks as we were originally told by our vet. He will be limited to one floor of the home for 4 months, no stairs, no swimming, no running, on a leash for everything, which will be soooo much fun as we live in a 4 level side split home, so there are stairs everywhere and my parents are moving in and will be living on the main floor area of the home so it will be a hard situation. Thank god they are great and will help with Maddux along the way. We will also build him a ramp to go up to the second deck in the back yard which will give him access to the second floor.

It was hard leaving him there yesterday as he has not ever been alone for that long, he has stayed in a kennel once but he had Jake with him. It's so hard with dogs as there is no way to explain to them what they are going through. If it was a child I could at least let him know that it's for his own good and tell him what will happen. With Maddux he has no clue....:( He is at the Veterinary Emergency Clinic in Toronto and they seem to be really nice and focused on the animals. I spoke to his Dr. this am and feel really good about her being his Dr.

Chris and I will be staying at Den's place until Friday and then will stay in Toronto on Friday night. I have a conference at the CN Tower on Friday all day and we have to pick up Maddux on Saturday so it just makes sense to stay in TO on Friday night.

I'll post more when I know more. Thanks in advance for all the good vibes I know you will all send.

5 yrs ago today I married my best friend

Five years ago today, Chris and I were basking in the warmth of the Dominican Republic waiting to become husband and wife. It was a gorgeous day, beautiful blue skies. I married my best friend that day, and I never thought I could love him any more than I did that day but as the years go by, we grow closer and closer and my love for him has grown in ways I can't even describe. I never knew there was love like this out there and I found it, I feel so blessed to have him in my life, not only as my life partner but also as my best friend. Chris is the one person I can tell anything to. I never have to worry about being judged or mistrusted by my words. He is always there to listen and give advice when needed. We often say that our relationship is evenly balanced and it truly is, when I'm down he is my rock and vise versa. I would marry him again any day and to know that we will grow old together and soon start a family is something I couldn't have imagined before he came into my life.

"You are the love of my life, my partner, and most of all my friend. I thank you for all you do for me, for your support, for looking at me the way you do, for making me feel loved and needed. You are everything to me and I couldn't have asked for better. Here's to many more...!!!"

I woke up this morning and to my surprise I found a beautiful bouquet of flowers, a card and a beautiful anniversary frame with our wedding picture in it. I cried and cried and cried... just like our wedding day. he is so sweet and thoughtful. Here's a picture.

5 Months waiting...

Yesterday marked 5 months waiting for our referral. You know you are in a good place when the day passes you by and you don't even notice. Here's to another month down and hopefully not much more than 5 months left to go.

We are now offically 5 months closer to our son. Definitely a time to celebrate.

happy/sad

I "borrowed" this post from another blogger. It was so beautifully said that I needed to share.

I have been emotionally fighting between HAPPY and SAD lately.....
Happy to be an Aunt....... Sad not to be a mom
Happy to see my nieces grow from day one....... Sad to miss the early lives of our children (to be)
Happy to be adopting...... Sad not to feel them grow in me
Happy not to be going through a delivery......... Sad not to be breast feeding them
Happy to be going to Africa...... Sad not to be planning the trip yet
Happy for others referrals of Beautiful children...... Sad to not know when it will happen for us
Happy that life has taken me on this journey and met amazing people..... Sad that it is so hard and so longgggggg
Happy to spend time with my family..... Sad that I don't have my own yet (well hubby and dog)
Happy to be alive, healthy and breathing........ Sad to be getting older and more tired
Happy that I have the most AMAZING husband...... Sad not to see him be a DAD yet
Happy to TRUELY want children and not take it for granted.... Sad not to really live it
Happy to have the means to get what is needed for our family...... Sad I can't get things ready yet (don't know what ages, sex or number 1-2) DAMN Limbo!!!!
ETC ETC ETC
One minute I am thankful and happy and the next I am sad and frustrated. I feel menopausal.... yikes...... I figure maybe a year from now it will HOPEFULLY be a reality. I don't want to wait to live but it is hard not to dwell on the WHEN. It is an effort to live in the moment right now. But I do not want to look back and think.... man.... I should have lived EVERY minute.... life is too short.

Busy, Busy, Busy

Hi All, I know I haven't been writing much lately but I have been busy, busy, busy. Which is great. I can't believe i'll be at 5 mths already on Saturday, the last 2 months just flew by. I think it helps that I recovered from my last post within a few hours, only one good cry and I was good to go. I started my new career and feel that it will be great. So far I like it and I think I will really like it when I know more of what i'm doing...:) I wish you all were in the same happy place that i'm in right now, keeping busy and not thinking of adoption every minute of every day. I haven't had that in a year and it feels great. Don't get me wrong, Kaysen is always on my mind but he is now just there and not taking over my life. I sooooo hope this continues for the next few months.

My mom and dad have now sold their home and will be moving in by June 10, so we are now under construction/renovations. They started on the large shed last week and i'm guessing will have that finished by the weekend and then they will get started on the inside. I look forward to having it all done but I think we will be in renovations for the next year but i'll keep you all posted to our progress, something new to blog about....yahooooooo.

Looks like I will be doing some traveling next month as well so that will make next month fly as well.

Another bit of news we have, which is not necessarily good, is that our poor Maddux needs surgery. Looks like he has thorn all the ligaments in his one knee and will need surgery to repair. We did try to let him recover on his own as the surgery cost a small fortune but he has somehow ended up with more damage and can only be repaired by surgery. He will be having surgery in Toronto in 2 weeks and will need 8 weeks of full hard recovery. No stairs (my house has 4 levels, which should be fun) , leashed all the time when outside, and much more rules that i'm sure we don't even know about yet. But it is so sad to see him in such pain that it will be worth it if he can walk normal again, he is such an active dog that he is going crazy having to stay home all the time while the other dogs get to play and go for walks. Here's hoping all goes well.

Well that's it for today, just wanted to let you all know, that things are good and that the last post was just a moment, nothing like i've been before. Thank you all for your wonderful comments of support and encouragement.

More bad news....

Wow, this title is becoming a regular title in my blog. Of course, seeing as I've been in a great place lately and accepting things as they come and keeping myself busy there has to be something to bring it down. I contacted the agency yesterday because I had read that the wait was not extended and I wanted to hear it from them to make sure. I received an email response this morning explaining that they are currently working on May 08 dossiers, which makes my 8-10 month waiting now 11+ of waiting. It's just so hard to maintain high spirits when you keep getting extended, in 4 months it's been extended by 4 months, makes me wonder what the time line will be once I actually get close to October/November of this year. I have been fighting an internal battle with myself all day to stay strong and keep smiling but it's hard. So instead I had a good cry and ruined the whole day, at least now I can move on and keep smiling...:) Tomorrow is a new day with a beautiful sunshine.

ONE YEAR

WOW, one year since this journey began, and where are we now? We are 4 months in to waiting for the referral of our wonderful son and going strong. I won't lie and say this last year has been an easy one, the home study process was nerve racking, the holidays were really hard to get through with a smile and the first few months on 2009 were really hard with delays and new laws and things changing all the time. But the last 2 months have been great, i've started a new job, we started reno's in the house and the beautiful sunshine is finally coming out to great us. The way I look at is that we made it through one year we can go another. I'm sure there will still be many ups and downs to come but right now we are in a good place and the time is passing by fast enough so i'm riding with it and smiling and just feeling good about the whole process. Do I want my son home more than ever, absolutely, but realistically it will still be approx. 1 year before we get to have him home, so we accept it and move forward.

I would like to take this time to thank everyone for the great support in the last year. My family has been so amazing and supportive, always there to listen and cry with me. My husband has been my rock and without him this journey would have ended a long time ago. and my new adoption community friends, those I have chatted with on the phone, met in person and those I have grown a friendship through online discussions and email, you are all amazing, and you all make this journey easier. I can't wait to look back in years from now when we all have our little ones home and we are discussing what cute things they did that day.

I do hope that next year at this time I'll have Kaysen in my arms and can hardly find the time to blog but if not I know my support system, my family and my husband will get me through it. Things happen in this journey that we can't control and we all lose hope now and then but it does happen and families do actually get complete, so as long as I keep believing it will happen then I think we will be ok.

Doggy Art

Kaysen Art

I saw this on Rhonda's blog and thought it was just amazing. So I made my own. Rhonda is a fellow adoptive mother who is leaving to pick up her daughter Eden on Sunday. She has been waiting a long time to bring her little girl home, here's to all them staying safe and being home soon.