All evening I have been imagining the moment I will finally get to hold my son. Cuddle him, kiss his little head as he sleeps, and just sit and stare. It's a yearning feeling I have inside , I usually don't sit and dwell on it to much but tonight it was stronger than I was. The empty feeling inside is needing to be filled. I know I have months, if not years to wait but I often ask myself, when will it go away, why can't I make it go away, and finally will it ever go away?
I picture you in our home, sharing, laughing, smiling, creating new memories. I long for the day I don't have to picture it anymore.
Isabella's Age
5 comments:
Oh my, I can totally relate to this. That yearning is something so beyond my control...not a bad thing, just hard to feel most of the time. Thanks for sharing.
Allison
(Waiting too for the day I get to hold my child(ren)...)
Oh, I know that feeling so well. In our long struggle with fertility, that yearning was so intense sometimes that I could hardly bear the pain and longing of it. When I finally held our son for the first time, it's like a hole in my heart was filled. I can hardly, hardly wait for you to describe what that first moment holding YOUR son was like for you. You're almost there...
Ruth
It will happen... but not soon enough! Dreaming is what we do.. so keep dreaming!!!!
L
I am generally not emotional but have had moments when I think about having a child home and will have tears rolling down my cheeks. It's crazy but I get it.
Dreams come true - we have all been witness to that over the past few months...
Keep dreaming,
L
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